I love how mentally strong that I have become as I get older. It can only get better from here. I have come to love myself (my quirky, nerdy self) for me. For years, I would pick every imperfection out on myself, and criticize it. There is always room for improvement, but I don’t punish myself a million times for my imperfections like I used to do. I still have to tell myself sometimes (although not as much), “It’s okay to make mistakes! It’s how I learn to be better!”
To get through guilt…we must learn how to forgive ourselves.
I’ve always been able to draw laughter out of people in one way or another. BOOGER. I love that.
I’ve never had a fear of speaking in public. I really love that.
I’ve always thought I had particularly nice feet even though they’re really big. I like them too.
I’ve learned to love my ability to work. I didn’t know I had it in me until now.
I’ve come to appreciate my ability to love unconditionally. I didn’t know I could until my children were born.
I’m learning every day to love my body for the miracle it is. I wish I would have seen it sooner.
I’m focused on never telling myself I can’t do something. Every day I work on removing “can’t” from my vocabulary.
I am constantly working toward loving my physical appearance. Every day I see something new.
I want to learn to LIVE every day. Today I am living.
How are you and GUILT?
Does this resonate with you?
I NEED to work out cause I ate too much today
I can’t believe that you would do that, now you must not eat tomorrow
I feel so bad, I can’t believe that you let yourself go
You’re NEVER gonna get to your goal weight
You’re such a failure
All of those ran through my head. What’s interesting is that the closer I got to my ‘goal’ weight the more the guilt festered in my mind. It was the all consuming force that would drive me into bingeing more, ’starting over’ tomorrow, and bawling my eyes out as I fell asleep stuffed.
Guilt is the most important thing that I had to let go in my journey in over-coming my negative relationship with food. I believe that guilt is the thing which feeds the abusive cycles that we have with things. Be it food, relationships, exercise, body image, self-esteem, etc. It tells you that you’re not worthy and trying to over-come the level of guilt that I used to throw at myself was insurmountable on most days.
How do you kick this cycle? I can’t tell you how many days I went through this. Sometimes 5-6 times per week. This is what helped me:
Let it go: ‘Yep I screwed up and ate to much, but I am not going to fed the guilt’
Breathe:Many times in the middle of what could become a binge, I have learned to stop and take 10 deep breathes
Identify your emotions:What is causing this ‘need’ for food/maintenance of a relationship/laziness?
Make small mini-goals:Instead of trying for the whole week, for example binge-free, try for one meal. Be totally relastic with only focusing on 1-2 goals per week.
Success Journal:write down your daily success. could be something someone said, how you felt, how you listened to your body, walked for 10 minutes, stood up for yourself. No matter how big, or small.
Have you struggled with guilt, and over-came it?
Do you struggle?
How does/Has guilt play(ed) a role in your life?
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What do I love about myself? I love that I’m not afraid of a challenge, whether it’s moving to a completely foreign country or pursuing sky-high goals. I’ve learned to love my body and realize that no one is perfect, so why not aim to be the best ME that I can be? As I get older, I grow more confident, self-assured and capable of loving and being loved. Life is a miracle and a gift — I’m so happy to have realized that before it’s too late and start loving every moment of my time here.
How do you like your workouts?
This morning I got up…and got my shred on! First I powered up with a bit of the walnut while Jillian coaxed me into her domain.
I did Levels 1 and 3. Level 3 is hard. I think it was mentally hard because I have never done it before. I made it through the whole set and honestly I could see how much I can improve. I LOVED it.
My legs were sweating.
I boozed it up…I don’t have any weights.
I personally like workouts that are hard and fast. I much prefer to do an intesene 20 minute treadmill interval then to do 45 minutes non-intense. I also prefer to do workout classes which focus on short intervals of an exercise and then move on: BodyCombat, BodyPump etc. I do like spinning…but I have to be in the right mindset for it.
This brings me to the questions: Hard & Fast or Slow & Steady? What type of workout do you prefer?
I’m a firm believer in self-love. You can’t ever really love someone else if you don’t love yourself first.
1. I love my ability to focus and make what I want out of life a reality. It has helped me find true happiness.
2. I’ve learned to love my body as a whole – it’s stronger than I ever thought it could be.
3. I’m working on loving my belly. Its leftover stretch marks and extra jiggle from a bit of excess skin is a daily reminder of where I once was and why I never want to be morbidly obese again.
I love giving away things.
I love celebrating successes.
I love my readers more than pretty much anything in the WHOLE FREAKING WORLD.
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I love that I am an open book. Some people tell me that putting my whole self out there is not a good idea. That I should keep some things to myself because others may use these things against me in the future. I say – NO WAY!! I have NO secrets. I believe that secrets rot your soul and there is nothing inside me that I am ashamed of. Everything I’ve ever done or said or tried and failed has brought me where I am and made me WHO I am. I like who I am and plan on sharing myself with everyone I meet from now until the day I die. And I plan on doing it with a smile on my face!!
Can I call myself transformed?
*I do cuss in this video, there maybe some f-bombs
Can you say that you’re transformed, even if your body hasn’t changed? Is mind transformation more important?
During the course of the past year I have lost 122 pounds and found out a lot about myself. I LOVE that I am a very goal driven person. This joureny has shown me I can accomplish anything and I LOVE that sense of empowerment. I LOVE how strong and healthy my body has become. I LOVE how I wake up each day excited about all the possibilities my life holds.
If you knew you were going to die…how would that impact your life?
I watched, let tears roll then got my shit together. I have a closet full of clothes I can’t fit. I go through must days trying to ‘relieve’ that fact that I didn’t workout when I was supposed to my snacking. Then I finally workout due to all of the snacking. I don’t trust myself most of the time to tell me when I have done eating. I struggle to stay motivated. I struggle with looking at my thighs and wanting nothing more than to call up Heidi Montag’s PS to see if they could just suck a little fat out of them.
Then I watch movies like that and realise that EVERYTHING that I think, do, eat, incorporate in my life is MY CHOICE.
After watching the video: I washed my dishes, cleaned off my bed, brushed my teeth, flossed, moisturized my face, took my disgusting herbal mixture, vitamins and wrote out my weekly goals. I have complained about Yeastball and where I am at. I could have died and yet there is this hurdle whereby I still enable not healthy eating patterns..but more mentally draining thought patterns that do NOTHING to help me.
This video is what I needed.
Would you change your thinking/life/thoughts/ways of living if you knew you were going to die?
I love that I try to love myself. It doesn’t matter if I have bad days or good days, I’m always working on trying to love everything about myself. Instead of giving up and focusing on the negative, I make a conscious effort to work on changing the less positive thoughts into glowing reviews of myself. I love that daily effort to think positively about myself, like I would automatically think about a friend.
‘So we have 25 minutes before the Opera. Wine, coffee, walk?’ I say
‘I could use a glass of wine!’ she beams back
‘Perfect’ I exclaim
Then we headed to the Opera. I have to be honest, I have never watched an Opera before and have never been to one before.
I don’t know if I was sold on it. I appreciate it as art, I do most things. However, I was tired and the glass of wine made me sleepy. Not only that but the wine was festering in the Yeastball. It’s amazing how if I eat and/or drink something that the Yeastball loves..then I INSTANTLY get gasey and bloated (TMI, I know).
We left after the first Act and headed to coffee.
I am so glad that I found Sarah. She has been such an amazing American hit of friendship here. We have similarly different paths, thoughts on life, but a common ground that is SO refreshing. Have friends like that?
–Literally what you love:
I love my sense of humor and my crazy love for music. My creativity. My dedication to friends and family.
–What you’ve come to love:
My place in the blogging world. My obsessive nature. The ups and downs of my moods and brain craziness. My writing.
–What you’re working on:
Love for my body. It’s a tough one, but I’m working on it every day through the support of friends in the blogging community and in my own mind.
I have to admit, that I went shopping yesterday..opps. I went to Flower and I LOVE this shop. It’s one of those shops that actually makes clothes for WOMEN. Curves, flattering, simple, classy, good craftsmanship.
All the clothes I bought and tried on were only 50.00 a piece. Normally between 70-130.00. I LOVE sales. I usually only shop sales to be totally honest. Taking a page from Jen’s book…the i-phone fashion show.
So…which one did I pick?
Dress A:
Dress B:
Dress C:
After my post on making change in my life..I decided that I just have to PUSH through not wanting to add fitness to my life and sitting on my ass. I ran down to the gym and cranked out this:
I was ONE hot sweaty mess. However, I loved it. I am such a creature of intense workouts. I just don’t have it in my, right now, to run 15 miles, spend 1 hour on treadmill.
People inside and outside of this suspended huge ball harnessed in. Once they got to the bottom them were flying around inside of it.
Then people suspended from the ‘lighting’ rig of a stage from a crane. SO COOL.
Today is my first day back to work after a six week holiday. I have mixed feelings. Part of me loves that I am back into a routine. But to be honest, I have LOVED every single ounce of this sex SIX (I re-read my post and realised what I wrote…a mental lusting?) weeks of doing nothing
I love that I’m flexible! I love that changes in plans don’t throw me off. I love that I can adjust quickly and willingly to support, encourage and accommodate the people that I love. I love that I don’t look at this as a weakness–I don’t feel that I’m being walked on or taken advantage of. I am so thankful that God has given me this gift to use to the benefit and blessing of others. How can that be a weakness?!
Are you willing to change?
I sat in my bed this morning, before opening my computer and looked out the window.
The trees are beginning to change colours, leaves are beginning to die. They don’t have a choice in change, they don’t fight change. They accept change, embrace it, go with it, adpat to environmental conditions and move on.
I don’t like change and find myself rebelling against it…even if it’s what I really want.
However, what I came to an understanding about today is that many times we fight change because we do not have a clear vision about where we actually want to be. We, I, say that I want to to this,that,ortheother…but really when it comes down to it I don’t know and/or can’t see what that feels like.
Thoughts? How did you overcome the change resistance wall and set-forth on what you wanted? Do you/Did you have a clear image in your mind of what you wanted to be?
I love how I feel stronger and more in-tune with my body every day. As I start to increase my strength training and yoga, and take on new fitness challenges like spinning and running a half-marathon, I am amazed at how strong and able my body feels. It is driving me to listen to my body and figure out what works best for me.
Do you like workin’ your legs?
I have to admit I love my legs. I have really big, muscular calves and there are times when I’ve had people stop me and say ‘I love your calves’. I used to be self-conscious of my calves…but now I LOVE them.
I woke up this morning and thought ‘Just go to the gym and you’ll feel so much better.’ I was inspired by Cynthia who was inspired by IowaGirlEats. When I read throught IGE’s ‘workout‘ section..I knew that LEGS it was today.
I felt like I had lactic acid pumping straight into my muscles…amazing! I always ALWAYS feel better once I workout. I have to admit when I was looking at myself today I was a bit disappointed with the way my body looked. However, with each leg pump, sweaty lunge, kicker that annoyance/frustration left.
I came home and powered up with some cereal. 1 c. rice krispies, 1 c. Special K, 1/2 c. raisin bran and 1 banana.
Normally I would have gone back for more, but I just am going to sit on one serve and see how I feel.
Which leg workout do you love to hate, hate to love? What other part of your body do you like to work?
